Speak to me Lord

Today has been a hectic day around our house.  I’m trying desperately to get things cleaned and in order.  (It got outrageously out of hand while my husband and I were both sick a week ago.)  So as I run around wiping, picking up, washing, etc. I haven’t been in the most worshipful and prayerful frame of mind.  So for a few…and I mean very few…moments my children were both playing and there was silence.  Wonderful silence.

So I sat, turned on my mp3 player and listened.  So many wonderful praise filled songs, but one stood out today.  It hasn’t caught my attention in a while, but it did today.

If You Want Me To – Ginny Owens

The pathway is broken
And The signs are unclear
And I don’t know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I’m gonna walk through the valley
If You want me to

Cause I’m not who I was
When I took my first step
And I’m clinging to the promise You’re not through with me yet
so if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will walk through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that’s not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I’d never go alone

So When the whole world turns against me
And I’m all by myself
And I can’t hear You answer my cries for help
I’ll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley If You want me to

I have to admit, that is how I feel sometimes, here.  Not as often as I did when we first arrived, but there are still those days.  Days when I miss friends.  Days when I miss being financially confident.  Days when I miss family.  Days when I wonder if I’m following God’s call.  Days when I think I can’t listen to another whiny child.  Days when I feel alone.  Days when I despise walking into my kitchen because it seems every dish I just cleaned is now dirty again.  Days when I long for a date with my very best friend.  Days when there are tears for no reason…other than selfishness.

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that’s not my home
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I’d never go alone

Praise Jesus, I am not alone!  Praise Jesus, that those days are fewer and fewer.  Praise Jesus, that I feel more confident in Him and myself daily!  Praise Him, Praise Him, Praise Him!!  I know I couldn’t last a day without Him!

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