Our reading for Spiritual Formation this week addressed our constant busy-ness as a society. As I was reflecting on the reading, I realized I’m one of the worst! I seem to always feel the need to fill gaps in my schedule. Afterall, if no one else will do it, I might as well. What an unhealthy mindset!
So, today I’ve decided, I’m just not going to do it anymore. I will follow through with my current commitments, but I will not be adding any more. After all, what is more important? What is my real driving force? Am I truly doing God’s work, or work to make myself look better behind the “facade” of holiness? Chances are, most of the time it is the latter.
“Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.” Psalm 46:10 NLT
How often do I allow myself to be still? Not often at all.
As I sat and reflected on this truth, I realized that it not only is having a huge effect on my walk with God, but is also hurting my family. Because I am consumed by busy-ness, I am not as willing to take five minutes to really get to the heart of the matter when one of my children are upset for seemingly no reason. I basically just tell them to get over it because they are just being silly and selfish. Who is really being selfish? That’d be me.
Both of our books for class included the same quote by Carl Jung:
“Hurry is not of the devil; hurry is the devil.”
How often are we allowing ourselves to be deceived?
As I was looking around Google for an image to represent our overly hurried, busy lives, this image by Salvador Dali caught my eye
How many days have I felt like I would explode if I had one more thing to do? How many times has it completely been my fault? Well, I’m done. I want what is important. I want my Jesus to be first. I want my family to be next. Sorry, if you don’t fall too high on my list anymore. It doesn’t mean I love you any less, I just am rearranging my priorities the way God would have me order them.
I want to be about His business, doing what He has called me to do.
**Father, thank You for Your blessings! Thank You for speaking Your truth to me. Forgive me for my sin of busy-ness. I know it won’t be an easy change to make, but I know with You I can do it! Help me to have a new mindset. Help me to always put me behind and You in the lead in EVERY aspect of my life! Amen