Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart
be acceptable in your sight,
O LORD, my rock and my redeemer.
Psalm 19:14 (ESV)
Chapter 2 was all about the power of words. We’ve heard all our lives about the dangers of the words we speak out loud. I’ve never once given a second thought to the words I don’t speak out loud. Most of these about myself.
Jennifer brought up the issue of “labels” and how they impact our lives. I can totally see this in myself…in my insecurities. I’ve always loved music. Music speaks to my heart in a very profound way. Singing brings me pure joy. But, even now, I am very insecure about singing. I always feel like it is never good enough. Why is that? I have one powerful memory that resounds in my mind every time I get ready to sing the first note. One day, I was probably about 6 or 7 years old, the family was in our car driving somewhere. One of my favorite songs came on the radio, and I began to sing. My mother chuckled and turned to me and said, “De, sweetie, I think we should leave the singing to your sister. She’s the musician of the family.” Now, I know my mom meant no harm by the comment. I know I used to be a VERY nasal singer, but that one incident has followed me my entire life. Similarly, when I was entering junior high, my aunt commented on my signing up for choir by saying, “Don’t waste that teacher’s time honey, you aren’t the musician in the family. You should do yourself a favor and take home ec instead.”
Words, just words, that I play over and over in my mind. Yes, I am a classically trained vocalist. Yes, I have a bachelor of music degree. Yes, God has called me to be a worship leader. Yes, I doubt myself every single day.
“The tongue can bring death or life”
I will never be able to remove those memories from my mind. (And many, many others that control many other aspects of my life right now.) But, Jennifer encourages that through the power of God, I can strip them of the control they have! (Oh, how I look forward to this!!!)